To be honest, it took me a while to drop the hesitation for this post. If you have ever wondered why was I never in on the beauty bandwagon or why I've never quite talked about skincare or anything skin related that's because for someone who's been struggling with acne for the past 2/3 years, it's always been a taboo subject. Well, for me at least.

Suffering from acne took a huge toll on my self esteem and it has been a long time since I was comfortable enough in my own skin. I would be lying if I said that it doesn't matter because frankly, I've been there. I've been there when I had people asking me if I've been stressed out because I was breaking out badly. I've been there when there are days I never want to step out of the house because I felt miserable (af) about the way I look. I've been there when people joke about my acne and I can relate to how annoying that can be because making light of a problem they don't suffer from does not mean it is okay. And I've been there when I was sobbing in frustration at how crappy my skin is. I hope you know that even if you're going through acne right now, you're not alone. You never are.

Well, now you can probably understand why I never felt like I had the rights to broach this topic on skin or skincare because my complexion was never clear enough for me to even be talking about it. I had tried nearly every product you can imagine. Cult favourites, drug store and high-end. Name it and I'd prolly have tried it before. And nah-uh, nothing quite worked. Not effectively on the long run at least. At some point when my skin got really bad, I had friends and family telling me it's probably time I see a dermatologist. And so I did. After dumping 4 digits worth of money into treatments and skincare products prescribed specially for my skin type and it's horrible mess, my skin situation was still, bleak. I was not getting better, not as dramatically as I hope it would have been with the amount I am spending on it. It was there and then when my self-esteem hit a new low on the charts because for once, I felt like I was probably never going to get past acne. It was horrid. 

Early this year, The Wellness Clinic reached out to me. (Disclaimer: I am not obligated to share anything I don't believe in and I am only sharing this right now because of how much it has helped me.) I was incredibly skeptical at the beginning. I didn't think it was going to work, I mean how was I supposed to have faith after I've been disappointed for that many times? But I went for it after doing my own research about Dr Ram who is a total gem, for the record. He's pretty much the Santa Claus for all things skin. I was lucky enough to receive consultations, treatment and be attached to a clinic where the people cared for me each step of the way. By that I mean phone calls to follow up on how my skin is receiving the products and texts to check on how was I doing. 

But, as you probably would have expected from my very-difficult-acne-prone-and-sensitive-skin that it was not all glitter and magic of course. The skincare worked like nothing ever did but it was not substantial for my skin to see great improvements. I jumped the gun for oral medication because it is really the case of why not than why and that didn't work out very well for me. I had a horrible rash breakout from the oral medication all over my body and I was scared shitless. Turns out, I was allergic to the antibiotics. Phew! I am still taking another oral medication that is taken to regulate the sebum production on the skin and they look like red jelly beans. Doesn't taste bad neither did it cause any reactions, so kudos to that for helping me step my skin game up! (If you guys want to know more about the effects of taking oral medication, feel free to leave me a comment or drop me an email. I would love to help with whatever I've learnt and understood from Dr Ram!) 

And no, my skin still isn't flawlessly clear like in you see in those skin care commercials and I still do suffer from breakouts from time to time, but my skin is way clearer now than it has ever been before and for that, I'm so thankful. I literally am beaming with gratefulness because for my skin to get to where it is, I really have to owe it to the team at The Wellness Clinic. I still struggle on a daily basis with being comfortable in my own skin, but hey. It is normal and I'm only human too. Learning from it every step of the way, I realised that acne does not define the person you are, much less does it make you any less beautiful. For all of you out there who's beating yourself up on having acne, you're beautiful and don't let it get to you. You can get past this, I promise.


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Thank you so much for the love over emails and direct messages that you guys have left me in regards to this post. It means a lot for me to be able to encourage you girls on this journey to being comfortable in your own skin. In courtesy of The Wellness Clinic, they've kindly offered two free consultations if you quote my name or tell them you've read my blog! Don't forget to ring them up to make an appointment prior to heading down. You girls got this!